So much has changed in me. Im so diffrent from what I used to be. I used to be innocent& smile.

I have a myspace account now. But the school put a fire wall on it so we can not reach it.It is sad.

Anyways... my stuff is there....if you want to keep in touch with me. Ill be back home in about a week or two.

I dont know but Ive been told.
Vermont here is very cold.
Bundle up or you'll freeze.
If you dont you'll be on your knees.

(If you can think of something that rhymes with told... or can make up a few other lyrics that begins with like "I dont know but Ive been told..." Or "I dont know but I was taught" or something with that rhythem... leave me a message. it can be funny or out there or shit like that.)

Heres one that i found on the internet... David.. I thought you would like this one. Concidering u said something like "ur just a regular GI Jane now arn't ya."


There's this Army girl named G.I. Jane,
Her favorite phrase is no pain, no gain.
When she gets to Iraq she's gonna say,
"Hey Saddam, get outta my way!"
She's rough, tough, and hardcore,
She'll beat you down, till you can't take more!
She busts onto the scene with her M-16,
She's a lean, mean fightin' machine!
She's proud to defend our flag,
She never lets her troops' heads' sag.
And when she gets home, she'll be a hero,
The chance of her retiring is next to zero!
If you look on the battlefield, you may sight her,
Cause she's one fuckin (damn), hell of a fighter!

OH!
G.I.!
JA!
NE!

G.I. Jane, NO PAIN NO GAIN!!!

I think Im addicted... not to a substance... **for now** but to the military life at Norwich University. I had so much fun there this past weekend with the LCW... I had so much fun even when i was in pain, tired, agravated because couldnt keep in step with the marching the first few times. I felt like i fit in there... unlike other colleges, I felt like I could see myself living there, and becoming a better person than what I could have been if i didnt go to Norwich University.

I would be suported by my fellow rooks, and company cadres and people even if I was allways last. While i was there I was suported even if i was doing a sucky job... and they made me feel good afterwards. I felt like i was accepted... for the kind of person I am. I felt like I belonged... Like i would feel so happy there.

I mean and I would get into the best shape, I would be built up a stronger leader, a stronger person, stronger at everything... there would be a bond like no other between me and my rook buddies, and fellow members of the corps of caddets.

I had so much fun learning new things, leading my company... becoming a better overall leader.

Anyways, I gota go for now...

--Vicki--

I Have three THREE papers that are overdue tomrow for my english class!!! SHIT mother fucker... im in deep shit now. I mean shit... i better work on them tomrow and tonight. So god dont please dont distract me... cuz i might not have enuf energy to even work on them tonight.

I love this song... Gravedigger... heres the music vid for it...



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My mother is about to drive me clinicly insane! **not ment to be taken literaly allthough it may happen.** Not only dose she drive me insane at home, because god knows she causes me enough stress at home... but add a car, highway, high speeds, and me driving behind the wheel, and the amount of stress that it causes me makes me feel like I am about to explode!!!!

I mean god!!! I can only concentrate on two things while driving, driving and or the radio. Having a conversation with my father while driving is easy. With my mother it draws all my concentration from those two things to her, and away from safe driving. Now in my mother creating all this stress for me, she caused my blood presure to rise alot and caused me to put the pedal to the floor which meant going like 85-90 in a 55mph zone. I didnt get a ticket thank god.

Then on top of that my mother was bitching to me how i should have cared more to be earlyer to visit with Dan Baker at his compitition, and how i should explain how it was my fault when it realy was her fault because she wouldnt let me leave untill i filled out a fourm to allow me to go to a summer camp and weekend thing. She drives me nutz!

She dosnt give me time to myself god. Anyways. thats my rant for today, i probably will rant more through out the weeks im off. ** I have off untill march 30th **

allmost there. allmost vacation... allmost amazing . Vicki plans to during the vacation, go to get a massage, go tanning, go sking, go whoo... with someone. Yea. So... yea.

sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
Que se preparen q lo q viene es pa q le den, Duro!

Mamita yo se que tu no te me va' a quitar (duro!)
Lo que me gusta es q tu te dejas llevar (duro!!)
to los weekenes ella sale a vacilar (duro!!)
mi gata no para de janguiar porq

A ella le gusta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina)
como le encanta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina) x2

Ella prende las turbinas,
No discrimina,
No se pierde ni un party de marquesina,
Se asicala hasta pa la esquina,
Luce tan bien q hasta la sombra le combina,
Asesina, me domina,
Anda en carro, motoras y limosinas,
Llena su tanque de adrenalina,
Cuando escucha el reggaeton en la cocina.

A ella le gusta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina!!)
como le encanta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina!!) x4

Aqui nosotros somos los mejores,
No te me ajores,
En la pista nos llaman los matadores,
Haces q cualquiera se enamore,
Cuando bailas al ritmo de los tambores,
Esto va pa las gatas de to colores,
Pa las mayores, pa las menores,
Pa las que son mas zorras que los cazadores,
Pa las mujeres que no apagan sus motores.

Tenemo' tu y yo algo pendiente,
Tu me debes algo y lo sabes,
Conmigo ella se pierde,
No le rinde cuentas a nadie. x2

sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
Sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
Sumale mambo pa' q mis gatas prendan los motores,
Que se preparen q lo q viene es pa q le den, Duro!

Mamita yo se que tu no te me va' a quitar (duro!)
Lo que me gusta es q tu te dejas llevar (duro!!)
to los weekenes ella sale a vacilar (duro!!)
mi gata no para de janguiar porq

A ella le gusta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina!!)
como le encanta la gasolina (dame mas gasolina!!) x4  now why you may ask did I put this in my blog? Well... first of all go to mtv. and wach the music video. Seccond of all..this guy is fuckin hott... third of all this is the kind of music i like to dance to... becides hard rock. forth of all... figure outwhat the words mean... because. if you do... and you figure out what the seccond meaning is to it... uh. congrats toyou. I will give you a hit... it has to do with a liquid, becides gasoline. lol...  Craig, I realy realy realy like you. You have been there for me, you make me smile like all the time, you let me cuddleclose with you when there is a scary scene in movies... and you like me for who I am, and you think I am beautiful, hot, funny, amazing, sexy, smart, that i have nice assetts. You protect me from guys who get too frisky...and you stand up for me... well if i needed standing up for. So far he has been the best guy becides Dan... notpublishing his last name. Anyways... yea. There you go david. He is right for me.

** parts in bold are sung by a guy.**



I realy cant stay...
                
But baby its cold outside...

I've got to go away...
          
But baby its cold outside...

This evening has been...
                        Been hoping that you'd drop in..

So very nice...
         
I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice...

My mother will start to worry...
                  
Beautiful whats your hurry....

And Father will be pacing the floor...
               
Listen to the fireplace roar...

So really I'd better scurry...
       
Beautiful please don't hurry...

Well mabye just a half a drink more...
                    
Put some records on while I pour...

The neighbors might think...
              
But baby it's bad out there...

Say what's in this drink?
      
No cabs to be had out there...

I wish i knew how...
                
Your eyes are like starlight now...

To break the spell...
          
I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell...

I ought to say no no no sir...
     
Mind if I move in closer?

At least I'm gonng say that I tried...
                  
Whats the sence of hurting my pride?

I realy cant stay...
         
Oh baby dont hold out...

AH BUT IT'S COLD OUTSIDE!

I simply must go...
          
But baby its cold outside...

The answer is no...
    
But baby it's cold outside...

The weolcome has been...
             
How lucky that you droped in...

So nice and warm...
     Look out that window at that storm!
My sister will be suspicious...
                    God your lips look delicious!
My brother will be there at the door...
             Waves upon a tropical shore...
My maiden aunt's mind is vicious...
         God your lips are delicious...
Well mabye just a cigarette more...
                   Never such a blizzard before...
I got to get home....
         But baby you'd freeze out there...
Say lend me a combo...
       Its up to your knees out there...
You've really been grand...
                 I thrill when you touch my hand...
But don't you see?
     How can you do this thing to me?
There's bound to be talk tomorrow...
                Think of my life-long sorrow...
At least there will be plenty implied...
      If you caught pneumonia and died...
I really can't stay..
        Get over that old out...
Ah but its cold outside...
               Where you could be going when the wind is blowing and its cold outside?
Baby its cold, cold outside.

Sometimes i wanta cry,
But I cant...
Sometimes i wanta die,
But I cant...
Dont ask me why...
No, No... dont ask why.

You see I wanta cry,
But I cant...
Cuz it hurts even more,
I get all choked up inside.
There is no joyride.

There is no one becide me,
I have no army,
No one to suport me.
Everyday I gota deal with everyones problems.
When I gota deal with my own.

I think Im loosing everything,
He's left me crawling.
With nothing elce,
With no one elce.

Dont ask me whats wrong with me,
Dont bother asking...
Because I will cry,
and crying hurts so much.
And Ive had enough,
enough pain.
Just let it rain.

Cuz, sometimes i wanta cry...
But I cant.
Sometimes I wanta die...
But instead I am forced to bleed.
Forced to Bleed Alone.

All alone

I am kind of worried, that soon there will be another death in the family. Another untimly death... you see my aunt well she is like an aunt, because she is my uncles boyfriend anyways.... she has sepsis or something, its like when your body is fighting off a severe infection, and it affects your blood. She is in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit, because it has effected her heart. Its realy scary, because she has diabeties, and has to have kidney dialsis too. She is just 55 too, and the thing is, every time i have prayed for them before for them to get better soon. They have died instead. This is why I am not that religous anymore. I feel like she is going to die. I dont know why, but I do... its realy scary.

Then my sister, has this bad infection also, and the scary thing is, it might be immune to amoxisylin, the only thing that can get rid of it. So she might have to go into the hospitle also. So yea, I am worried. However my sister might be just faking it. I am not shure....

Anyways... Thats what my aunt said to my mother who visited her yesterday about me. So I can suceed... "Consentrate on yourself. Make yourself the most important person, anything that might benifit yourself, the most important priority. And this might help Vicki to Suceeed."

I AM SO FREEKIN EXCITED! I THOUGHT I WOULDNT MAKE HONOR ROLL! OMG! BUT I MADE IT! I GOT SECCOND HONORS AGAIN! HOLY CRAP! I PULLED IT OFF! I THOUGHT FOR SHURE I WOULDNT PASS! YES!

Let me take a breath now. Phew... I am so excited! Now the next problem is Prom. I have to cleen my room so I can buy my prom dress. This year Im not going too fancy. But you know what, I have been having dreams lately that I come into the prom looking alot like either arwen or eowyen. Wierd... anyways. and that everyone is like wow. who is that prety person? lol... me, I am getting a nice dress this year. and next year im going all out and getting a beautiful one. So i am excited... I thought things werent realy going my way. But they are! OH IM SO EXCITED!

So yea, i kindo realy failed my SAT. I got the internet scores back saying i got a 1030 out of a 1600! now what the fudge is up with that. I thought i did realy well. But on a lighter note, not having to live up to my brothers high bar of a 1590... I rocked the pool today. I kicked its ass over and over again. I got 15 points for my team... and we only lost by 2 points. After a 40 point defisate.. which is realy realy realy big defisate in  swimm meets. Anyways, so yea i am a bit stressed out. However this weekend should give me some time to relax. I hope... anyways.

I need to go chill and relax some more. Before my head explodes. from all these aims.

love-
vick